Cora, just being out was too much. Overstimulation like some - high addict.
( It's the metaphor he's running with today. )
I fed on someone dead, but what happens when that someone isn't dead the next time. What if I kill someone. I could kill you or - or try. Just -- listening to your heartbeat right now, being this close...
( His eyes linger on her neck, but he lets go of her hand and stands, backing against the wall. )
I don't know anymore. I thought I had it handled. I thought -- I don't know. Cora, I'm obsessive and addictive on my best day. I talk a mile a minute and forget to eat for hours. I can't with this. I can't be that guy. I think you need to be in charge of my blood bags. I have to moderate. I can't -- I don't know.
[It feels like tonight was a step forward and a step back all at once, and she doesn't entirely know what to make of it. She wishes she knew the thing to say to reassure him that tonight wasn't a complete failure, but she doesn't know that she has them.
As much as she tried to compare their experiences, she doesn't fully understand the bloodlust of a vampire. How it can be so dangerous because though the moon controls their transformations, wolves don't crave it unless they've been starved of it's light. Stiles needs blood to survive, but blood could also be dangerous for him, and somehow, they're going to have to reconcile the two.
If Caroline asked her, she would have volunteered to help him learn. But Stiles doesn't want that, so for now, she'll focus on the things he does want. The things she can offer.
She stands as well, pulling herself up so that she's facing him more.]
If that's what you need, I can do that.
[She can monitor his intake, make sure he feeds regularly. She'll have to ask Caroline how regularly a vampire needs to eat, just to be sure he's feeding often enough.]
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You didn't hurt anyone. Ivan was already dead. And now you know what's too much and what you have to work on.
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( It's the metaphor he's running with today. )
I fed on someone dead, but what happens when that someone isn't dead the next time. What if I kill someone. I could kill you or - or try. Just -- listening to your heartbeat right now, being this close...
( His eyes linger on her neck, but he lets go of her hand and stands, backing against the wall. )
I don't know anymore. I thought I had it handled. I thought -- I don't know. Cora, I'm obsessive and addictive on my best day. I talk a mile a minute and forget to eat for hours. I can't with this. I can't be that guy. I think you need to be in charge of my blood bags. I have to moderate. I can't -- I don't know.
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As much as she tried to compare their experiences, she doesn't fully understand the bloodlust of a vampire. How it can be so dangerous because though the moon controls their transformations, wolves don't crave it unless they've been starved of it's light. Stiles needs blood to survive, but blood could also be dangerous for him, and somehow, they're going to have to reconcile the two.
If Caroline asked her, she would have volunteered to help him learn. But Stiles doesn't want that, so for now, she'll focus on the things he does want. The things she can offer.
She stands as well, pulling herself up so that she's facing him more.]
If that's what you need, I can do that.
[She can monitor his intake, make sure he feeds regularly. She'll have to ask Caroline how regularly a vampire needs to eat, just to be sure he's feeding often enough.]
We'll figure it out.
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( And then. )
Do you think maybe you could sleep in my room tonight? I don't want to sleep alone.
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Yeah, I can do that. Just let me go get changed.
[She's not going to sleep in her jeans and boots.]
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