everyonelives | coming at you fast, midnight

That's your bar?

( Has he been excelling all this time? )

Can I share something with you?

In your first few months, yes. Making it through the day without committing murder is the bar.

[But she nods as the waitress comes over, and Caroline orders herself a drink before leaning back and glancing back to him.]

Share away.

( Not wanting to become his father, Stiles has taken to coffee, but once a day he makes it Irish. His once hasn't happened yet. )

When I skipped town, it wasn't -- ( He sighs. ) I said it was about control and about putting everyone in danger, but, I was vulnerable and I'd gotten close to someone I didn't think I'd have a chance with -- and instead of let myself try, I...

( Fill in the blanks. )

Ah. The old having feelings for someone as a human was hard enough but now being a vampire makes everything worse so I'm just going to run away instead of dealing with it routine.

[Caroline nods, because hoo-boy has she been there.]

You are not the first to fall into this trap, you will not be the last.

Yeah. And then all my friends were doxxed and everyone is in the wind.

( And in touch, but he's now permanently out of touch. )

You sound like you have experience.

Oooh. Okay.

[She takes a sip of her arrived drink as they dig back into the wayback machine of Caroline Forbes' relationships.]

In high school, before I got turned, I was dating a guy named Matt. We'd known each other since we were like, five, and he had always had eyes for Elena, but he and Elena broke up and she started seeing Stefan and Matt and I got ... closer.

[Awkwardly, with a lot of starts and stops.]

But then I got turned and everything changed. I had all these magnified emotions and a blood lust that I was struggling to handle. And I was not the fully evolved adult you see before you. I was a seventeen year-old girl with seventeen year-old jealousy issues, and a lot of teenage girls unfortunately got compelled because I thought they were hitting on my boyfriend. It was not my best look.

[To say the least.]

Matt and I had ups and downs where we would get back together and then break up again and I was lying to him the whole time because he didn't know about vampires and then him lying to me because he and my mom found out and were not dealing with it well so ... it was a big mess. And I started kind of having feelings for his best friend. And as I say it now, this is not the most reassuring story.

[Especially since it ends with her and Matt deciding that ending their relationship was what was best for them.]

But I will say that once Matt got used to the whole vampire and werewolf thing and ... over the me wanting to kiss Tyler thing, we got back to being friends again. We figured things out. And the upside to your particular situation is that she already knows about vampires. And knows that you're a vampire. So all you have to do is the much scarier part of actually sharing your feelings.

What if I don't know what my feelings are. I'm dating my work, basically. Every summer I interned at the FBI and when I graduated from college, I went right to Quantico. When our paths crossed we hadn't seen each other since I was in high school.

( Forget stops or starts. )

I kissed her once in an ambulance.

Well, you don't have to make a decision right now. That's one of the bonuses of being a vampire. You have the luxury of time.

[They have forever, after all.]

And because we have time ... you're not restricted to only one epic love and if you don't find it at right that second when it crosses your path, that doesn't mean it's over with that person forever. I mean, sure. If the world was perfect, that's the way it could work, but it doesn't.

[She takes another sip of her drink.]

You said it yourself, you kissed her once in an ambulance and she was gone, but here she is again. And maybe now isn't the right time either, but ... I am very much guilty of trying to control things and pushing them so hard that they break. And while I don't regret speaking up for my needs at the time, I do regret forgetting that we had time to figure things out and things weren't going to be hard and scary forever.

So ... take your time. If it's meant to be, then it'll be there when you're both ready.

You're really good at this.

( Being a vampire, giving advice, coming off as the coolest mentor, running a school, you name it, he assumes Caroline kicks ass at it. )

[She laughs.]

Someone should benefit from all my years of mistakes.

[And that's what she's here for. To help Stiles, so that he turns out okay. So that he has a better shot than vampires of the past.]

You look at it that way, I look at it as everything I can learn from. Teach me your ways.

( He skipped the first time around, but, maybe it could be good for him. )

I'm sort of, in and out of the equivalent of couple's therapy with my partner, but talking to you more, maybe -- weekly -- could do me real good. And not just because I don't have to talk in metaphors with you. Do you... counsel in your off hours? Outside of the Mystic Grille?

My phone is always on. And if we're in the same place, I'm always down to grab a drink with a friend.

[Because that's what this will be at the end of the day. A friend to be able to touch base with when living forever gets hard.]

I don't ask for help. Like ever. So. That means a lot.

( As good as it is to be honest and work through everything, he realizes he has much more to work through. And his biggest problem? Is not being a vampire, but, being Stiles. )

How did you get in your line of work, anyway?

Well, that is a very long story.

[But she will tell it over several more drinks and possibly some snacks until the rest of their group arrives. Lydia slides into the booth next to Stiles with a sigh.

"Well, that was an exercise in nothing we didn't already know."]

( "There was a chance," Bonnie says, checking her phone for the first time today. She sends a check-in text to Danny as Stiles slides over. )

Things not arm themselves at the armory?

More like they didn't have any information that was different from the Men of Letters.

[Lydia shrugs. It was a long shot anyway.]

Not that I feel like we need to know much more at this point. This doesn't seem like the kind of thing that you can stop so much as brace for impact.

So, what's next, then?

( How do they brace? )

I think I'm going back to Boston. I need to make sure I have a job to go back to when this is all over.

[Not that that's going to do anything to help against the Gauntlet but this is a witch problem not a banshee problem. And she should at least check in at work before her life gets upended again.

Isaac glances over his shoulder at Bonnie, curious about how that texting is going. "We might be heading north too."]

( "Danny's going to need reinforcements," Bonnie says, looking up. "Could your job spare you one more weekend? The more bodies he has, the more this ritual will stick. I'm getting bits and pieces, but, Sierra Harper gave him her blessing - and then some."

As Stiles catches up... )

Sierra Harper, like the liar, the witch, in the New Orleans trapdrobe?

Well. That's something.

[If she's giving up the ghost and taking Danny's side, anyway. But Lydia makes a tentative face at that.]

I'm not a witch. I'm not really sure how I could help.

[She's not saying that as her being opposed to helping, but she would rather be useful over slowing people down.]

( "Think of it like being a conduit. Like Scott or Isaac, or an Original. Even a Damon. That energy can be harnessed, but not taken, to balance his efforts --" )

-- Like a battery.

( "Not... quite." )

Alright. I can try. It's not like New York isn't on the way to Boston anyway.

[But she will turn to Stiles.]

But since we don't want to steal Ryan's car, any chance you could give us a ride?

[She misses him, and would like to get some quality face time, even if that face time might include him and Isaac sniping at each other for five plus hours.]

Me? Yeah, I just - had a thing I decided I didn't have yet, so I am free to drive you - all. Isaac.

( He nods in his direction.

Bonnie leans against Isaac and lowers her voice. "Does he or does he not have a thing?" )

[Isaac glances over to Bonnie. "I don't speak Stiles, but I'm willing to bet there is a thing, he's just decided he's going to bail."

Lydia raises an eyebrow, because they are definitely going to talk about that later.]

Perfect. It'll give us some time to catch up.

Yeah, we can all -- catch up. Caroline, do you need anything else?

( Stiles, you came here for her, but sure, make it sound official. )

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