[And then there's that question and she hesitates in trying to figure out how to answer it. It's long since stopped being as terrifying as it was when she first started to show signs. She doesn't find herself winding up next to dead bodies and not remembering how she got there as much as she did as a teenager. But it's still not a fun experience.]
[Lydia is the same. In some ways it's worse for her as a mathematician, as all of math is logic and numbers. It's one of the things that made her fall in love with it in the first place. The world could change on a dime, but numbers were constant. One plus one will always equal two.
It's hard when you can't trust your own instincts.]
No, not really. Most of the time I'm fine. But if I'm being called to a death it could start with dreams or noises or voices. When I was first learning how to control the bodies, I would get in my car to go to the drug store, and without even realizing it and not understanding how I'd got there, I'd wind up by a pool with a dead body in it instead.
There have been a few instances where I figured it out before the person was actually dead.
[She hesitates, before wincing.]
That's always frustrating, because there isn't always a way to easily avoid it. Especially if it's someone you really know well. My best friend got run through with a sword in high school and I ... I don't know what I would have done if I had to wail for her.
[The number of times she's almost screamed for Allison are too many.]
( With his shady introduction having been massaged by his real alliance with David and Ezra, he still reminds himself he's been at the Colony's beck and call, courtesy of Jessica's take no prisoners attitude. "It's not about what we believe our clients to be, it's about what's best for our clients.")
[It's also not uncommon knowledge, so it doesn't bother her that he calls it out. There are certain things they keep private though, so part of her is curious how much he actually knows.]
She survived, obviously. But for a little while it was touch and go.
I try, anyway. I can't stop her from doing what she thinks is right. When that happens, the best thing you can do is go along with it and hope they don't get themselves killed.
[Or, in the case of Stiles, if they do get killed, they somehow come back.]
Because of my profession. I stay loyal to my clients - and to the firm.
( For the most part. He's learned that Mike's bleeding heart rubs off on him, but representing the Colony has also stunted that part of him and it drives a small wedge between them. )
I take it that your clients don't necessarily stay loyal to you?
[This seems to be something that's important to him, and honestly that's something Lydia vibes with. Loyalty is important, and she appreciates that in a potential partner.]
My clients either do what I say, or say damn it all to hell and do what they want. And sometimes, that screws me over. But, I do my damnedest to make sure a client stays in line.
( Sometimes that's where Mike comes in. )
Other clients... are loyal themselves and only themselves. You learn that the hard way and become their enforcer. Legally. I don't care what cured Elena Gilbert in Mystic Falls. But my clients were sure as hell curious.
Nothing is enough for the Colony. And I've learned that the hard way.
( David's herbs have helped with keeping magical ears at bay to help him separate between work and his real life, but most of the time, it feels like he works for the mob and that's never what he wanted. )
( But, over time, David became a friend and confidant. )
Look, we may be reaching the end of the line for the Colony in this form. Until then, I'm going to have to dot my i's and cross my t's. Like dropping in on Mystic Falls and impersonating the local DA.
[Lydia can't say she hasn't been in her fair share of sticky situations. And knowing all this information, Stiles would probably tell her not to trust him. But Lydia is curious and sometimes, you have to take a risk.]
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( It's a snarky way of checking in, Lydia. But, touché, that is a thing to ask a banshee. )
... What's it like?
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No, nothing like that.
[And then there's that question and she hesitates in trying to figure out how to answer it. It's long since stopped being as terrifying as it was when she first started to show signs. She doesn't find herself winding up next to dead bodies and not remembering how she got there as much as she did as a teenager. But it's still not a fun experience.]
Honestly? It's a bit like losing your mind.
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( Harvey's mind is what makes him. )
Is it constant?
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It's hard when you can't trust your own instincts.]
No, not really. Most of the time I'm fine. But if I'm being called to a death it could start with dreams or noises or voices. When I was first learning how to control the bodies, I would get in my car to go to the drug store, and without even realizing it and not understanding how I'd got there, I'd wind up by a pool with a dead body in it instead.
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( Like always the twain shall meet. )
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[She hesitates, before wincing.]
That's always frustrating, because there isn't always a way to easily avoid it. Especially if it's someone you really know well. My best friend got run through with a sword in high school and I ... I don't know what I would have done if I had to wail for her.
[The number of times she's almost screamed for Allison are too many.]
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( With his shady introduction having been massaged by his real alliance with David and Ezra, he still reminds himself he's been at the Colony's beck and call, courtesy of Jessica's take no prisoners attitude. "It's not about what we believe our clients to be, it's about what's best for our clients." )
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[It's also not uncommon knowledge, so it doesn't bother her that he calls it out. There are certain things they keep private though, so part of her is curious how much he actually knows.]
She survived, obviously. But for a little while it was touch and go.
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( But Allison is a different breed. )
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[Allison is tough and a survivor, but Lydia also believes in luck and that her best friend has it in spades.]
She continues to get lucky. And one day, I worry that luck is going to run out.
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( He admires Lydia. Her loyalty, her worry, her intellect. Basically, her mind. )
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[Or, in the case of Stiles, if they do get killed, they somehow come back.]
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( But, he's a cold-blooded lawyer, isn't he? Kids is a stretch, but. She's younger than him. He'd guess over a decade. )
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Because of your profession or because of the witches you work with?
[It's a valid question.]
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( For the most part. He's learned that Mike's bleeding heart rubs off on him, but representing the Colony has also stunted that part of him and it drives a small wedge between them. )
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[This seems to be something that's important to him, and honestly that's something Lydia vibes with. Loyalty is important, and she appreciates that in a potential partner.]
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( Sometimes that's where Mike comes in. )
Other clients... are loyal themselves and only themselves. You learn that the hard way and become their enforcer. Legally. I don't care what cured Elena Gilbert in Mystic Falls. But my clients were sure as hell curious.
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And presumably saying that it's something they don't want to catch the attention of is not enough?
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( David's herbs have helped with keeping magical ears at bay to help him separate between work and his real life, but most of the time, it feels like he works for the mob and that's never what he wanted. )
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[She would assume that witches as powerful as the Colony have something of a stronger retainer when it comes to their professional needs.]
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( But, over time, David became a friend and confidant. )
Look, we may be reaching the end of the line for the Colony in this form. Until then, I'm going to have to dot my i's and cross my t's. Like dropping in on Mystic Falls and impersonating the local DA.
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[The end of the line part of things. She was in the bunker when it was starting be discussed.]
Better to keep things business as usual. You wouldn't want them suspecting.
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( Things got less amorous and more real. He could understand how his sticky situation but lead her to take a step back. )
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I think I still have time for breakfast.