Ben, I'm a little discouraged here. I've heard you describe yourself as not enough, left behind, a dead-end...
( She stands up from her chair, moving around her desk to lean against it. )
Being a mechanic is learning a vocation. It's useful. And it actually opens doors. I know it doesn't make the best living, but it's good work. People need their cars. And not everyone can work on those cars.
[He's never been upset about his job, and for his level of experience, he actually makes a decent living. A living that he's earned, for better or worse.]
It just doesn't always seem like that translates for other people. Or maybe I'm just picking the wrong ones, I don't know. But it seems like everyone is more interested in a good time than something long term.
No, not those words exactly. It's more implied. Though one guy straight up admitted that he was killing time until the person that "fit the lifestyle he had in mind for his future."
[He winces.]
I may have done something really messy about that one.
Well, that is harsh, but you see how any of that is more about them, than you, if you're fulfilled with your lifestyle choices. ( quickly, she adds ) As in, choice of job, not - man or woman. ...How messy.
And presumably didn't lead to anything starcossed or stars in either of your eyes. But, revenge-aside, it was consenting. I don't see that as messy.
( She nods, though, picking her pad back up. )
We have a little bit of time left, so, I want to end the session by asking something. You have friends and they're fine. A mom, a stepdad? ( She flips back, yep. ) And, now your dad. But nothing about finding your dad has given you the answers you've been seeking. And it just happened and we're just starting, so I just want to ask, what predominantly is at the forefront of your mind right now. Have you taken anything from this first session.
[He'd be lying if he said a name didn't come to mind. But his gut tells him that things won't work there, not if they try to make things more than they are.]
Okay. Well, Ben, I think we have a solid foundation here to continue the work. But, it's up to you to book your next appointment. So, I want you to sit in this and give it a real think. And, if you want to schedule another session, well, you have my answering service.
( And very nice secretary. )
And if you have any questions or musings off the top of your head, I'd love to hear them.
[He considers for a moment, before shaking his head.]
No, I think that was good for a first session. And thanks, for taking me on. I don't know if you live out here or if this is convenient at all but I appreciate the effort.
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( She just wants to make sure. )
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I mean, it's not like I'm some kind of big shot. I fix cars. I know in a lot of ways I probably seem like a dead end.
[A pause.]
Professionally sometimes too. Not other mechanics, necessarily, but other people.
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( She stands up from her chair, moving around her desk to lean against it. )
Being a mechanic is learning a vocation. It's useful. And it actually opens doors. I know it doesn't make the best living, but it's good work. People need their cars. And not everyone can work on those cars.
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[He's never been upset about his job, and for his level of experience, he actually makes a decent living. A living that he's earned, for better or worse.]
It just doesn't always seem like that translates for other people. Or maybe I'm just picking the wrong ones, I don't know. But it seems like everyone is more interested in a good time than something long term.
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( Is he hearing this or is he interpreting this. He has so many thoughts about Dean, she has to ask. )
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[He winces.]
I may have done something really messy about that one.
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[He holds up his hands.]
She was completely aware of it and it turns out she hated him, so that was kind of fun to bond over.
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( She nods, though, picking her pad back up. )
We have a little bit of time left, so, I want to end the session by asking something. You have friends and they're fine. A mom, a stepdad? ( She flips back, yep. ) And, now your dad. But nothing about finding your dad has given you the answers you've been seeking. And it just happened and we're just starting, so I just want to ask, what predominantly is at the forefront of your mind right now. Have you taken anything from this first session.
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[He looks off at one of the shelves over her shoulder as he tries to put that into better words.]
That's normal, though, right? Especially if you haven't been in therapy in a while.
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( She just wants that to sink in. )
Is there anyone you thought you might have a future with? Any could have beens?
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A couple. But they're long gone.
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( And very nice secretary. )
And if you have any questions or musings off the top of your head, I'd love to hear them.
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No, I think that was good for a first session. And thanks, for taking me on. I don't know if you live out here or if this is convenient at all but I appreciate the effort.
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( But, she'll stand and meet him, giving him a handshake. )
It was really nice meeting you in person, Ben.
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[He shakes her hand and with that, he turns and heads back into his life. But he does think he will be making another appointment.]