After Lizzie turned, it didn't really matter anymore, I guess. At least not for us in the present.
[She pauses as she leans back against the headboard, playing with her necklace.]
I kind of thought I would like to follow my mom. Be the next head of the Gemini family. But I knew that if I had kids of my own, there's a chance they would be twins and ... I couldn't do it. I couldn't watch them try to sort out who would have to merge or who would have to become a vampire. So I just ... wasn't going to do it. Adopt or something.
[If that partner was Hope, she probably was going to adopt anyway. But now all the options are back on the table and it feels a bit ... overwhelming.]
Adoption is a great thing. I didn't... know you'd thought that far into it.
( What sucks is that she should have. She should also be considering these things. This was her girlfriend. But, Hope is much more into the here and now. She's always obsessed with what's happening this instant. This problem. This challenge. Or, worse, the past. )
I'm so sorry I haven't - been there for you in this. I feel like a really bad girlfriend, right now.
[Josie's tendency to keep her thoughts to herself strikes again, but this isn't a thing that Hope had to worry about. It's a future she wasn't ready to acknowledge anyway. She reaches for Hope's hands, pulling her back to the bed and letting them both settle on their sides facing each other.
She keeps one hand in hers, holding that tether.]
It was way before we became us. But when I first found out about the curse, I couldn't not think about it. I ... I talked to Aunt Liv about it, and I know, she's not exactly the most helpful sometimes, but ... the curse lands on every set of twins, even if there isn't a coven to lead. I knew I had to make a choice. And then we happened and ... I could breathe a little easier about it because it's not like we could make biological kids on our own. And it's not like we're anywhere near ready to start having those conversations.
( She knows about the curse, not the ins or outs, but the basics. She understands how Josie had to have that in the back of her mind, how couldn't she. Women are taught and raised remembering biologically of what they're capable of. Thanks, mother freaking nature. She squeezes Josie's hand in hers. )
We can talk about anything. It's talking. ( She can see how dating her could, technically, let Josie off the hook, at least in the short run. She's now the full Tribrid. And she and Josie, together, wouldn't be able to make kids, anyway. She's right. ) I just want you to know that, whatever is going on in there, you can share it. The good, the bad. The merge. Kids. You can't be the daughter of Klaus Mikaelson and not think about raising kids.
One day? I could see it. I mean, we're barely out of high school and I'm still in the finding myself stage, but... Yeah, if - somehow or some way. I could see it.
Oh, yeah. Not anytime soon. I want to at least have graduated and have a job before kids come into the picture.
[And also be married but that seems like a loaded grenade to throw into this conversation, even if Hope is the person that she sees her future with - at least right now.
They are young. She tries not to lose sight of that.]
And, maybe other commitments that make sense beforehand, and to make sure we're not bringing a kid into the dangerous world we tend to live in. Which, I know, is... what it is.
I don't know? I mean. You're Josie, no matter what you look like. Eventually, it could get sad. But, there are also plenty of witches who are older than we think. So, seasoned, or wise, or just figuring everything out, I'll take you any way.
( The reality of it is scary, scarier than the kids conversation. )
And vampirism isn't completely off the table. Like if it's turn or die, I'm going to pick turn. But ... I think some of the things I want to do, witch-wise, work better if I'm human. At least for a little while.
[They can revisit it, down the line. Nothing has to be decided right now.]
( She keeps her hand intertwined with Josie's but rolls on her back so that she's looking at the ceiling. They can settle in and talk witch futures and cute things. )
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Apparently she and her siblings and Bonnie and probably your aunt got together and figured it out and now there's no more curse and ...
[And now her life is completely different than it was five minutes ago.]
... And all of the choices that I had made for my life based around this curse no longer matter.
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( But, she's not trying to Hope-splain, because, they're talking about something they really never do. )
It does... change things. And I get how sudden change - ( she stops herself ) I'm sorry, we never talk about the curse. We should have.
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[She pauses as she leans back against the headboard, playing with her necklace.]
I kind of thought I would like to follow my mom. Be the next head of the Gemini family. But I knew that if I had kids of my own, there's a chance they would be twins and ... I couldn't do it. I couldn't watch them try to sort out who would have to merge or who would have to become a vampire. So I just ... wasn't going to do it. Adopt or something.
[If that partner was Hope, she probably was going to adopt anyway. But now all the options are back on the table and it feels a bit ... overwhelming.]
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( What sucks is that she should have. She should also be considering these things. This was her girlfriend. But, Hope is much more into the here and now. She's always obsessed with what's happening this instant. This problem. This challenge. Or, worse, the past. )
I'm so sorry I haven't - been there for you in this. I feel like a really bad girlfriend, right now.
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[Josie's tendency to keep her thoughts to herself strikes again, but this isn't a thing that Hope had to worry about. It's a future she wasn't ready to acknowledge anyway. She reaches for Hope's hands, pulling her back to the bed and letting them both settle on their sides facing each other.
She keeps one hand in hers, holding that tether.]
It was way before we became us. But when I first found out about the curse, I couldn't not think about it. I ... I talked to Aunt Liv about it, and I know, she's not exactly the most helpful sometimes, but ... the curse lands on every set of twins, even if there isn't a coven to lead. I knew I had to make a choice. And then we happened and ... I could breathe a little easier about it because it's not like we could make biological kids on our own. And it's not like we're anywhere near ready to start having those conversations.
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We can talk about anything. It's talking. ( She can see how dating her could, technically, let Josie off the hook, at least in the short run. She's now the full Tribrid. And she and Josie, together, wouldn't be able to make kids, anyway. She's right. ) I just want you to know that, whatever is going on in there, you can share it. The good, the bad. The merge. Kids. You can't be the daughter of Klaus Mikaelson and not think about raising kids.
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[She studies Hope's face curiously for a moment.]
Do you want to have kids? Not right now, but ... one day?
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( She could really see it. )
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Oh, yeah. Not anytime soon. I want to at least have graduated and have a job before kids come into the picture.
[And also be married but that seems like a loaded grenade to throw into this conversation, even if Hope is the person that she sees her future with - at least right now.
They are young. She tries not to lose sight of that.]
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( She presses her forehead to Josie's. )
But, you're not scaring me. If that helps.
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[Josie is fine with being worried enough about the future for the both of them.]
You don't think it would be weird? If this is forever and I stay human? Eventually I'm going to start looking like your mom rather than your partner.
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( The reality of it is scary, scarier than the kids conversation. )
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And vampirism isn't completely off the table. Like if it's turn or die, I'm going to pick turn. But ... I think some of the things I want to do, witch-wise, work better if I'm human. At least for a little while.
[They can revisit it, down the line. Nothing has to be decided right now.]
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( She keeps her hand intertwined with Josie's but rolls on her back so that she's looking at the ceiling. They can settle in and talk witch futures and cute things. )