[The thing is, it doesn't feel like a second chance. It won't feel like a second chance until he knows he's going to be staying and remain himself. She's trying to get him to feel his feelings but all of his feelings are just the fear that he may not get to stay.
He doesn't know how he's supposed to plan or look forward to or enjoy anything if he doesn't feel like he's really here.
He flops back against the bed, trying to steady his breathing, and get his game face on. He'll get his shit together. A car ride with no one he actually cares about in it, and no one he cares about on the ground in Mexico will help. Because a lot of the tension is not knowing how to navigate everyone else's feelings along with his own.
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everyonelives2024-11-30 05:12 pm
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He doesn't know how he's supposed to plan or look forward to or enjoy anything if he doesn't feel like he's really here.
He flops back against the bed, trying to steady his breathing, and get his game face on. He'll get his shit together. A car ride with no one he actually cares about in it, and no one he cares about on the ground in Mexico will help. Because a lot of the tension is not knowing how to navigate everyone else's feelings along with his own.
It will be easier if he doesn't care.]