i'm leaving you my last curse

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[nextproject]

[Okay, he can give her something to chop. Mashed potatoes are up next, so he places the peeled spuds down in front of her for her to chop into quarters before going into the pot.]

When Ben and I have talked about his dad - few and far between, but it has happened - I don't think it's a desire he's particularly proud of. It's something he does want to leave in the past but there's a part of him that can't, and that can be hard to talk about. But I don't think he didn't include you to hurt you.

[Doesn't change that it did hurt her, but the hurt wasn't intentional.]

[enate]

He didn't hurt - Okay. It hurts that he didn't come to me. And maybe it hurts him that I never made any effort to reach out to ( a sigh ) his father.

( she can totally quarter potatoes. )

I hate that I can't do anything? Like, I genuinely remember nothing about this man. He made zero impression. Which means that either I've blocked him out, or don't remember him, or even the sex. And who cares about the sex, I got Ben. And I love Ben and I wanted ( the knife goes up with that word, then resumes quartering. ) Ben.

[nextproject]

Maybe that's all that matters. That you two got each other out of the equation. Realistically, there's still a chance that this man may wind up being a disappointment. And there's also a chance that he doesn't even want to meet the guy. He just wants the answer to the question.

[Sometimes an answer can do a lot to soothe any questions. If only Rudy knew what a can of worms Ben and Dickerson were about to open up. He slides the turkey into the oven before placing his hands on her shoulders gently.]

You raised a good kid, Lisa. He'll figure it out.

[enate]

I know.

( He leans against him. )

And I know my son. If he's out there, if someone is out there, Ben will meet him. And that's okay. And, is it crazy I don't want him to be a disappointment? It's the last thing Ben needs and - I'd rather there be something to find. Maybe this isn't a bad thing. Just a surprising thing.

[nextproject]

[He smiles at that as he wraps his arms around her and pulls her in close.]

Maybe. And maybe it'll answer some questions for you too.

[He can't imagine it's been easy, having no idea who fathered your child. Maybe this can put those parts of her to rest as well.]

[enate]

And him.

( She puts the knife down and turns around. )

I'm really lucky I found you, you know that?

[nextproject]

You know, I'm not really one to toot my own horn, but I have to agree with that.

[He smiles as he smooths a hand over her back.]

But I got pretty lucky too.

[enate]

I'm a handful, Sorrenson.

( But his hands feel that, don't they. )

God, I just hope he's going to --

( She hears her phone ding and pulls it out. She holds it out to Rudy. )

I'm officially a part of Who Is Adam Milligan. Sounds like a True Crime doc. Oh, that reminds me, we have to finish the Winnipeg Whiteout tonight.

( Serial killers in a blizzard. )

[nextproject]

[His phone buzzes in his pocket, as he fishes it out and looks with a smile.]

Me too. It's nice to be included.

[He puts his phone back on his pocket and nods.]

But yes. As soon as the boys go home, it's a date for you, me and the leftover pie.

[enate]

And the dead ice road truckers.

( It's quite the show! )