because the lives of the wicked should be made brief

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[enate]

How. Ben, what could you have done? Whatever was happening with him and Sam and whyever we were involved, that isn't on you.

( He didn't give Dean the childhood he lived, the brother he lost, the alcoholism, the depression, the night terrors. That wasn't on Ben. )

[acdc_rules]

I don't know. There's a reason I'm going back to therapy.

[He knows the thoughts and feelings are not logical. He was twelve.]

Felt like I was being punished even though I didn't do anything wrong.

[enate]

Well, for what it's worth, I think it's a healthy decision. Will you have to use metaphors?

( She's not sure how that might work, even with Dr./Patient confidentiality. )

When the time came, Dean trusted you. I don't remember all of it. I was pretty out of it, but, I remember you holding your own. You took to the shotgun a lot quicker than I... sorry. I've been replaying it, too.

[acdc_rules]

[Ben tries not to think about everything that came after.]

Yeah, I never want to do that again.

[He'll do it if he has to. But he doesn't want to have to.]

[enate]

That's okay. There's a reason he kept us out of it. Good reason.

( But that doesn't make what happened okay. )

[acdc_rules]

[Ben takes a deep breath and nods, before deciding to shove the rest of the topic away for now.]

I told him I'd be okay with meeting his mom. Seemed like a good middle ground when I don't know how to feel. So if you want to meet her too, I can let you know when she's here.

[enate]

Yeah. It's a little weird, but we were in a relationship for a year. And, I support you. I really do. Always have.

( She squeezes his hand. )

I should go back inside. You going to be okay?

[acdc_rules]

Yeah, I'll be fine. Gotta get to work anyway.

[He leans in for a quick kiss in the cheek before finishing off his coffee.]

Love you, Mom.

🎀

[enate]

Love you, too.

( She gets up, gives her son a kiss on the forehead and heads inside. )