because the lives of the wicked should be made brief

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[ostensively]

Early. Everyone here does.

( Except for the occasional hedonistic letting go ceremony. Which is literally just going to a bar in the village. There isn't much balance between the two. It's a collective. Everyone is an equal. )

[tearhiseyesout]

Sunrise meditations or something? How new age.

[Which may translate to how cult-ish, but she really isn't one to talk when she's in the cult of all cults if you're looking at the BITE model.

Behavioral control? Check.
Informational control? Check.
Thought control? They're trying.
Emotion control? Trying that too.

She tries not to be a hypocrite if she can help it.]

[ostensively]

I'm feeling holistic lately.

( She's been feeling restless, like nothing is enough. Knowledge, friendship, silence, piece. Nothing. It's like Jaq sensed it. Like she needs something to shake things up. She might not last long where she is. And she may incite chaos in the meantime, leaving it in her wake. )

[tearhiseyesout]

["Good for you" feels too sarcastic and she doesn't want this to become that. She's possibly incapable of restraining her barbs on a good day.

She also doesn't want to barge in with what's actually bothering her either. Because she knows what Sierra will say, and it will only make things worse when she says no. So she'll transition to something more neutral.]

They're hiring Damian Jericho to go after David.

[ostensively]

( That's calculated. She remembers Damian's dealings with their families. They are all different, according to whom calls upon him, her parents always being the least severe. But, David's parents. Would they ask for him alive? )

Do they want him dead or do they want him back?

The rumors are that they had him possessed and lost control. Amateur work, if you ask me.

[tearhiseyesout]

They picked Jericho because they want him back alive.

[Damian Jericho does not do wetwork - not intentionally anyway. There's also the chance that the demon might have already gotten himself stabbed or worse. But for now, they're assuming that he is alive, and will remain that way.]

They still have no idea where he is. Seems the demon has warded himself against being re-summoned.

[ostensively]

If I were a demon, it's the first thing I'd do. That, and get as far away from where I was. They should look into distant ties. Maybe from our childhood. You remember those twins from California, from boarding school. That's where they should be looking. Personal ties he can exploit.

[tearhiseyesout]

Already tried that. There have been a lot of heads of other covens wandering in and out to answer delicately placed questions.

[They've maxed out the obvious choices and now are moving on to the less obvious ones.]

Wherever the demon wearing David is, he's far off the grid.

[ostensively]

Maybe he's finding himself.

How are your parents taking it? How's Maxie?

[tearhiseyesout]

They're fine.

[It's impossible for them to blame the disappearance of her fiancé on her, thankfully. Not when there's such concrete evidence of his family's mistake. But she can still feel the tension growing.

What will they do with Jaqueline without David to dispose of her onto?]

My mother says I should try and prepare for "new suitors."

[ostensively]

What does that entail? Cottillion?

[tearhiseyesout]

I would murder them and she knows it.

[Cotillion? Absolutely not.]

No, it's more a lot of "my dear old friend is coming to town and oh look, they have a son your age. Please dress nicely for dinner."

[ostensively]

Only sons? The antiquation continues.

[tearhiseyesout]

I think she just wants to be rid of me as expediently as possible. It's easier to push me off on a guy than it is on a woman.

And I think she still expects me to have children.

[To which Jaqueline's response is absolutely fucking not.]

[ostensively]

I don't know if expect is the right word there.

[tearhiseyesout]

[It's not, but it's what she feels comfortable couching herself in right now.]

Maybe not. But I would rather rip out my insides with a rusty knife than birth a child, so that's the world we're going to use.

[ostensively]

Then that's the watchword. You're surviving?

[tearhiseyesout]

More or less.

[And they're far enough in that the emotions don't feel as much like a heavy weight around her neck.]

I miss you.

[ostensively]

I miss you, too. Every day. In my bones.

I'm sorry I left like that. I should've included you. Been honest. I was terrified. To be honest, I'm still terrified.

[tearhiseyesout]

Have you found what you were looking for?

[Is it too much to hope that when she does, she'll come back?]

[ostensively]

I don't even know what that is anymore. Every time I find something

Maybe I was the broken one all along

Do they miss me?

[tearhiseyesout]

Your mom asks me a lot if I've heard from you. I tell her no.

[Aside from being mostly true, she doesn't want to be the one to carry their messages for them.]

Your dad's been in his lab a lot.

[ostensively]

Some things never change.

I should miss them.

I miss you.

[tearhiseyesout]

[She's not going to repeat her feelings. Instead, she'll divert from the things that she doesn't know how to handle.]

I'll let you know if there's any sign of David.

[ostensively]

Thank you. Breakfast time.