It's only been a month, give or take. And I know it's a lot to get used to. Like I lived it, but trying to summarize it to explain it to them is exhausting, I can't even imagine what hearing it is like.
[It's just hard when she feels like she isn't want her parents wanted her to be.]
I just can't help but feel like I've disappointed her.
( He didn't have parents to disappoint. They disappointed him. And he died on his dad before he could do anything. Like clockwork, his dad was probably embroiled in all things Mystic Falls. But, to have his mom back, to hear everything that happened. Yeah, he saw some of that. And his sister. Sucks. )
Elena. You, Caroline, Bonnie... You're the opposite of disappointments. I know you lost me while you were under Kai's spell, but I lost you, too, and, Elena, I was proud to know you. And, really, really hurt I might not see you in my lifetime. Again.
( And look how that turned out. )
And, Damon chose now to - what, go back through your greatest hits? Did he mention Sybil - or me?
[Elena looks over at him at that, and she offers him a small smile, because somehow that was exactly what she needed to hear.]
I miss you so much.
[But right, now they have to talk about Damon.]
Apparently we never really had it out when we broke up, so he wanted to have it out now. He wanted me to lay out all my reasons why I was unhappy because he didn't believe that I went from being happy to unhappy.
( But, yep, this isn't about them right this second. )
And, twenty-some years later was the time. Vampires have nothing but time on their hands, I guess. You know that was about him, right? Not about you. Not even about you and him. That was all Damon being Damon. Don't get me wrong, I remember him when you were asleep, but, I also remember Damon finding me outside my dad's shop. ( But he's not looking to make her hate her ex. ) We've all done pretty shitty things to one another.
[She strives to do better now, to not make the same mistakes over and over again, but she can't deny that she hasn't always made the best choices.]
And I know he was controlled by a siren. I tried so hard not to blame him. But ... I just couldn't get past it. I guess losing you was the straw that broke the camel's back. I realized that so much of our relationship was me making excuses for him, but I couldn't do it anymore.
I thought my final straw was Penny. I don't know if anybody would have told you, or if it came up, but - back when Mystic Falls was basically an abandoned war zone, I was stopped by a cop two towns over. I wasn't drunk, but, she booked me and found my weapons stash. But, then we got closer and we started hunting the vampires together. Julian's crew or the occasional curious vampire who heard a tall tale about the fair game for anyone that wandered inside the town lines. ( He goes quiet. ) I thought I was really done because Caroline and Stefan compelled the town to leave for their own good, and then when Penny died. ...I got angry and I stayed angry. And when I learned what really had happened - ( Maybe something renewed in him. ) I'm sure you read about all this, but, when Bonnie became the next Rayna I tried my best to help her and keep her away from everyone and of course... that backfired. ( And he got hurt again. ) And then Damon disappeared and I packed up and I never looked back. I needed something more, you know. I thought all my life that Mystic Falls swallowed me up, but I let it. Once I tracked my dad down and tried to do something for myself, Damon found me. And he made a statement.
( A beat. )
But I don't regret any of it because even when push came to shove, Bonnie, Stefan, Caroline, I had their backs. But, I stopped making excuses. And I only helped when I knew they needed it. I set boundaries.
( A lot of good it did him in the long run. )
You put your foot down and maybe he doesn't know it, but for almost twenty years, he respected it. Or ignored it. You're hard to get over, Elena.
[Elena does remember hearing about Penny. Caroline left detailed notes on the things she missed. Her head also ducks some when he says she's hard to get over. She doesn't mean to be.]
Probably didn't help that this was the first time in a while I've really been with someone.
[Someone not Damon. Someone not a random date for an attempt at that normal life.]
I am sorry you lost Penny. Did you find her over here?
[Maybe it helps that they can be together now, even if Matt can't be back with the rest of them.]
[She can see it, and she squeezes his arm gently as she turns to face him more.
She knows how it feels to have killed someone. Even if the blood on her hands isn't someone she particularly cared for, she knows how it feels to know that the reason that person isn't there anymore is your fault. She can't even imagine what it would be like if it was someone she loved, someone she was thinking of spending her life with.
But she also knows Matt, and if he needs to hear it, she'll say it.]
You're a good man, Matt. I know we didn't always make it easy, but when I felt like I was flying off the rails and didn't know which way was up anymore, I knew you would help me figure it out. That you would remind me where the line was.
[She gives him a small smile before nodding.]
One mistake, one accident, doesn't change that. But I know it isn't easy to live with.
( He knows, at least that she left at first. That's being at Peace when you take glimpses back into the life you lived, but he's not about to admit to being that kind of guy. )
You know, I always knew if any of us got out, that maybe we'd be better off. Like that town would swallow us whole.
[She pauses as she tries to figure out how to say it in a way that doesn't sound like she was doing it for a guy, but at the same time ... yeah, kinda.]
I left because I was running for my life, again, but ... the guy I'm seeing lives in Kansas most of the time, and ... I don't know. I decided to stay instead of going back.
( Peace does something else even to the most bitter of them. Matt was already on his way to not hating all vampires for vampire's sake before Damon killed him, and, really, that should have driven that particular nail in the coffin hard. But, you don't resent outcomes at Peace. You go forward.
Not being at Peace, but in this extended hike, isn't helping his thoughts. That they at least get to do it, but he didn't get to. That like his sister and, soon after, his mom, he bit it. He bit it hard, thanks to a vampire Elena's thankfully no longer with.
Still, he lets the silence walk with them for a few minutes, because he doesn't like what he'd say otherwise. They have more important things to worry about. )
[Elena glances back to him, feeling the complications in his silence and frowning. She wasted too much of her life not really listening to Matt when maybe she should have.]
We may not get to talk again. If there's something you want me to tell -
[But before she can finish that statement, she gives a hiss of pain and glances down as one of her arms starts to bleed in the crook of her elbow, red rivulets starting to drop down her hand.]
( Matt wouldn't have said anything, wouldn't have burdened her with unfinished business or a life not lived, not when she gets to.
One hand goes to her side and the other one comes to her arm to brace her against him as pain shoots through her. Her blood seeps under and between his fingers. Letting go, he takes off his button down and wraps it around her arm, pressing. It's not going to do anything. This ... isn't happening to her, here. )
Come on. We have to hurry.
( The woods finally end, maybe because the ritual has been keeping them at bay this entire time, but the manor beckons them beyond, bathed in sinister moonlight. )
( That this fake manor isn't in the middle of a forest thanks to a spell is lost on Matt, but at least they made it this far.
When he was dead, he walked himself to his body. It should be this easy, shouldn't it?
He hobbles the two of them up the front steps, past an unglamoured Impala and another car, but there are no bodies as they haven't entered the spell yet. )
[Her eyes turn to follow the Impala, and there's a small heartbeat of relief. She knew he'd come, truly, but she didn't think he would be there so soon.
But she needs to get back to her body so she doesn't linger, leading the way into the manor and trying to find what she's looking for, but she can't recognize any of it.
Or maybe that's just the blood loss making her a little woozy (1).]
( Matt does he best to try and navigate and search using logic and maybe an otherworldly pull (13). Why wouldn't Elena's body pull her back? And, by proxy, him? )
[Because this spell isn't as simple. It's meant to keep her away, keep her from being a problem for as long as she possibly can. They probably intended for her to exsanguinate while her mind was here, distracted by the things she's lost.
Matt is a wild card, however, and he is able to see through some of the finer mesh in the cage, until Elena starts to blink.]
Wait, I think I recognize this hallway. Maybe we're close.
( She's weakening as she bleeds, but Matt is going to make sure she doesn't just, that she fights back and has everything at her disposal. That she has the fighting chance he never got.
He looks in any door they pass down, not missing a beat. )
[It takes them a moment, but eventually they manage to poke their head in the right door, where they see George Harper leaning over a bowl of what seems to be Elena's blood, while more drains from an IV in her arm.
He frowns, almost as though he doesn't understand what he's seeing, but they can see her body.]
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It's only been a month, give or take. And I know it's a lot to get used to. Like I lived it, but trying to summarize it to explain it to them is exhausting, I can't even imagine what hearing it is like.
[It's just hard when she feels like she isn't want her parents wanted her to be.]
I just can't help but feel like I've disappointed her.
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Elena. You, Caroline, Bonnie... You're the opposite of disappointments. I know you lost me while you were under Kai's spell, but I lost you, too, and, Elena, I was proud to know you. And, really, really hurt I might not see you in my lifetime. Again.
( And look how that turned out. )
And, Damon chose now to - what, go back through your greatest hits? Did he mention Sybil - or me?
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I miss you so much.
[But right, now they have to talk about Damon.]
Apparently we never really had it out when we broke up, so he wanted to have it out now. He wanted me to lay out all my reasons why I was unhappy because he didn't believe that I went from being happy to unhappy.
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( But, yep, this isn't about them right this second. )
And, twenty-some years later was the time. Vampires have nothing but time on their hands, I guess. You know that was about him, right? Not about you. Not even about you and him. That was all Damon being Damon. Don't get me wrong, I remember him when you were asleep, but, I also remember Damon finding me outside my dad's shop. ( But he's not looking to make her hate her ex. ) We've all done pretty shitty things to one another.
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[She strives to do better now, to not make the same mistakes over and over again, but she can't deny that she hasn't always made the best choices.]
And I know he was controlled by a siren. I tried so hard not to blame him. But ... I just couldn't get past it. I guess losing you was the straw that broke the camel's back. I realized that so much of our relationship was me making excuses for him, but I couldn't do it anymore.
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( A beat. )
But I don't regret any of it because even when push came to shove, Bonnie, Stefan, Caroline, I had their backs. But, I stopped making excuses. And I only helped when I knew they needed it. I set boundaries.
( A lot of good it did him in the long run. )
You put your foot down and maybe he doesn't know it, but for almost twenty years, he respected it. Or ignored it. You're hard to get over, Elena.
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Probably didn't help that this was the first time in a while I've really been with someone.
[Someone not Damon. Someone not a random date for an attempt at that normal life.]
I am sorry you lost Penny. Did you find her over here?
[Maybe it helps that they can be together now, even if Matt can't be back with the rest of them.]
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( She shouldn't carry that. And it's selfish of Damon to make it her problem. All these damn years later. )
Not like that.
( She understands accidents. He still holds himself accountable. Maybe his stubbornness and hatred brought him that. )
She forgave me.
( He hasn't forgiven himself. Elena can see it on his face, even in the forest's lighting. )
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She knows how it feels to have killed someone. Even if the blood on her hands isn't someone she particularly cared for, she knows how it feels to know that the reason that person isn't there anymore is your fault. She can't even imagine what it would be like if it was someone she loved, someone she was thinking of spending her life with.
But she also knows Matt, and if he needs to hear it, she'll say it.]
You're a good man, Matt. I know we didn't always make it easy, but when I felt like I was flying off the rails and didn't know which way was up anymore, I knew you would help me figure it out. That you would remind me where the line was.
[She gives him a small smile before nodding.]
One mistake, one accident, doesn't change that. But I know it isn't easy to live with.
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( And then, Damon. )
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I'm not in Mystic Falls anymore either. And it's actually ... been really freeing. I feel like an entirely different person.
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You know, I always knew if any of us got out, that maybe we'd be better off. Like that town would swallow us whole.
( Damon beat the town to it. )
Was it - med school that got you out?
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[She pauses as she tries to figure out how to say it in a way that doesn't sound like she was doing it for a guy, but at the same time ... yeah, kinda.]
I left because I was running for my life, again, but ... the guy I'm seeing lives in Kansas most of the time, and ... I don't know. I decided to stay instead of going back.
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( And there's nothing wrong with that. )
Whatever the reason, Bonnie, Care, you, Ty. There's a whole world out there for you.
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[She's gone more often than she's home, but she's doing important work.]
I feel like all of us are starting to find our place in the world.
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Not being at Peace, but in this extended hike, isn't helping his thoughts. That they at least get to do it, but he didn't get to. That like his sister and, soon after, his mom, he bit it. He bit it hard, thanks to a vampire Elena's thankfully no longer with.
Still, he lets the silence walk with them for a few minutes, because he doesn't like what he'd say otherwise. They have more important things to worry about. )
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We may not get to talk again. If there's something you want me to tell -
[But before she can finish that statement, she gives a hiss of pain and glances down as one of her arms starts to bleed in the crook of her elbow, red rivulets starting to drop down her hand.]
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( Matt wouldn't have said anything, wouldn't have burdened her with unfinished business or a life not lived, not when she gets to.
One hand goes to her side and the other one comes to her arm to brace her against him as pain shoots through her. Her blood seeps under and between his fingers. Letting go, he takes off his button down and wraps it around her arm, pressing. It's not going to do anything. This ... isn't happening to her, here. )
Come on. We have to hurry.
( The woods finally end, maybe because the ritual has been keeping them at bay this entire time, but the manor beckons them beyond, bathed in sinister moonlight. )
Your body has to be in there!
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Would it mirror where I am back in the real world?
[She glances back at him.]
I think they took me upstairs? Maybe the third floor?
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( That this fake manor isn't in the middle of a forest thanks to a spell is lost on Matt, but at least they made it this far.
When he was dead, he walked himself to his body. It should be this easy, shouldn't it?
He hobbles the two of them up the front steps, past an unglamoured Impala and another car, but there are no bodies as they haven't entered the spell yet. )
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But she needs to get back to her body so she doesn't linger, leading the way into the manor and trying to find what she's looking for, but she can't recognize any of it.
Or maybe that's just the blood loss making her a little woozy (1).]
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Matt is a wild card, however, and he is able to see through some of the finer mesh in the cage, until Elena starts to blink.]
Wait, I think I recognize this hallway. Maybe we're close.
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( She's weakening as she bleeds, but Matt is going to make sure she doesn't just, that she fights back and has everything at her disposal. That she has the fighting chance he never got.
He looks in any door they pass down, not missing a beat. )
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He frowns, almost as though he doesn't understand what he's seeing, but they can see her body.]
What do I do, do I just jump back into it?
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