Let the moment go… Don't forget it for a moment, though

[jockwitch]

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[cholesterol]

Yeah, that doesn't always happen.

( Or maybe it does and they're the sad exception. )

You ever think what it could've been like without the monsters? Without Klaus or Katherine.

[braveandstupid]

[She takes a deep breath before shrugging.]

I don't know. I think my life would have been really different.

[Maybe she would have been a writer. Traveled the world. Married a nice guy and settled down somewhere. But her sad, terrible life also brought her a lot of much needed perspective. She glances over at him with a smirk.]

I probably wouldn't be here, now, talking to you, so ... some upsides for the present, right?

[cholesterol]

Yeah. That's my life. All upside.

( He finishes his wine at that and takes some final stabs, shoveling the rest of the foot into his mouth. But, he chews before he speaks! )

I wouldn't change it. Couldn't. I don't know what I'd be doing. That's not true. Thanks to a Djinn, I do know what it would be like. Sam and me, we wouldn't be brothers. Not like we should. We drive each other up a wall, but I - I don't want to do this without him. Even if he's not right here. Knowing he's out there and he'll actually pick up my call.

( That's something. )

[braveandstupid]

[She nods, because she gets that too.]

Even if things really suck, you are who you are. I'd rather live with this version of me than a different one.

[cholesterol]

The other me I met, total blowhard. All money. Private jets. Huntercorp. He's out there somewhere with other Sammy. We rescued him from our wall.

( How's that for a story? )

[braveandstupid]

[Her eyebrows go up at that, reaching to take another bite of her food.]

Wait, like ... an alternate universe version of you?

[cholesterol]

Yeah, there are probably fifty. Most are dead now. Long story. Your Katherine? My Chuck. Except, Chuck's a control freak writer with an acoustic guitar.

( He's the wo-horst. )

[braveandstupid]

[She laughs because at that description, how could she not.]

He sounds terrible.

[cholesterol]

He is terrible. He is -- insufferable. He created the universe.

( Let it sink. )

[braveandstupid]

[It takes a minute, of her letting the words settle and sink in, before she pulls back and squints at him.]

You don't mean ...

[cholesterol]

I mean. I ( He rolls his eyes. ) Mean.

( Cas is an angel, Elena. Angels have a father. A douchebag father. )

[braveandstupid]

[Yeah but she didn't think he was some hipster writer asshole.]

And I thought I had it bad.

[cholesterol]

Yeah, but you didn't have God writing your life.

( Fuck him, really. )

[braveandstupid]

That ... must have sucked.

[To feel like none of your choices were really your own. She's very familiar.]

[cholesterol]

It did. It blew.

( He nods along to that. It's not helpful to say it might not be done yet. )

If it helps, you weren't in any of our novels the guy wrote. So. You're not Chuck's plan.

( Your decisions are your own. )

[braveandstupid]

Good to know.

[It's nice to not even rank on someone's supernatural scale, even if it's not the one in Mystic Falls.]

Did he write out every moment? There were no ... off screen scenes you could pick for yourself?

[cholesterol]

Over 100 books. And - lotta' maneuvering us. His endgame has always been Sam and me, one of us, killing the other one. He likes his stories biblical. Met the real Cain. Killed him, too. I - had to, he would've killed me.

( It's how every 'killed him' story goes for Dean. )

Killed Hitler.

[braveandstupid]

[Her eyebrows go up.]

Time travel too? Seems like you've really run the gammut.

[cholesterol]

No, well, yeah. But, not Hitler. Nazis uh - they transfused his descendant and put him into this yappy German guy. Shot him point blank.

( Hell yes he did. )

[braveandstupid]

[Her brow furrows.]

And I thought things got weird after Malivore. I guess I set the bar way too low.

[cholesterol]

Malivore sounds like a kink gone wrong.

( Also, like some boss battle in some video game. )

We've seen some shit.

[braveandstupid]

Yes, we have.

[She nods once, before smiling softly.]

It's kind of nice to hang out with people who get it.

[cholesterol]

Small town practice and doctor's lounge not doing it for you. Tell me. Is it like Dr. Sexy MD? Do any doctors wear cowboy boots, or, heels?

( Throw him a bone! )

[braveandstupid]

[She laughs.]

I do rock some heels, on occasion. We're kind of the wrong demographic for cowboy boots though.

[cholesterol]

Dr. Sexy does not care. He wears cowboy boots at conferences, in the OR, the morgue... Not that I - I watch it occasionally. Lifetime reruns. On. Channels.

( The DVD set. Dr. Sexy has nothing on Meredith Grey. )