( And that doesn't even begin to cover it. But, go on Sam. Smooth it on over. Make this better somehow. Because he can't get around it. Ben's messed up. And it's his fault. (Dean's, not Cas'. But he has to be mad at someone. )
Because what I'm hearing is that you're mad about him keeping a secret that wasn't his to tell in the first place. Revealing who Ben's father was wasn't on him, it was on Lisa.
And Lisa didn't even know, Sam. Didn't even ask. Just assumed I wasn't. Or, lived with me with an entire year and didn't say a damn word. You know what they meant to me. You know he felt like my kid. He was my kid, Sam.
( Except, he IS and he always WAS. No matter what he said. )
[He pauses trying to figure out what the problem is.]
Look, man, up until now I figured that Lisa and Ben were like ... your Stanford. You tried to pretend that everything else wasn't shitty and violent and awful and just ... have the life you always wanted. And just like Stanford it all came crashing down in the truly spectacular fashion that was our lives back then.
We all made shitty choices that year. But would Cas telling you then have actually made anything better?
[Sam speaks as someone who was raised by both Dean and John Winchester. There are things he'd trust Dean with that he would never give to John. Dean always kept him safe, even if it isn't the kind of safety Sam would prefer.]
And you made mistakes, but you can try and do better. You have a choice now.
[Not to say that they didn't have choices then, but feels far more open than it used to be.]
[Castiel makes him way just a little bit longer than he should, because he can, but also maybe he's a little tired of these Winchesters summoning him all over the place. It was quiet for so long and now it's four times in one weekend.
But eventually he does appear and nods.]
Yes, you are.
[He learned to speak Winchester enough for that to translate to "apology accepted."]
Yeah, we've been after these bodies for months. The last two were prepackaged with a nice resurrection spell and saddled Elena with her parents and the Sullivans with their dead son. Before that, Katherine and Damien were marked. Pretty sure they're still in the wind.
( But, all he can do is present the opportunity. And they fall into a comfortable silence before Dean finds the local game on. He gets him and Cas two beers from the fridge. They haven't had time like this in awhile. He's needed it. )
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( And that doesn't even begin to cover it. But, go on Sam. Smooth it on over. Make this better somehow. Because he can't get around it. Ben's messed up. And it's his fault. (Dean's, not Cas'. But he has to be mad at someone. )
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I don't think you're wrong for being mad.
[He will validate that much of Dean's feelings.]
But I don't think he can do anything to change that now either.
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( he could've apologized. explained it better. said anything. )
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[That's what Sam's really confused about.]
Because what I'm hearing is that you're mad about him keeping a secret that wasn't his to tell in the first place. Revealing who Ben's father was wasn't on him, it was on Lisa.
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( Except, he IS and he always WAS. No matter what he said. )
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[He pauses trying to figure out what the problem is.]
Look, man, up until now I figured that Lisa and Ben were like ... your Stanford. You tried to pretend that everything else wasn't shitty and violent and awful and just ... have the life you always wanted. And just like Stanford it all came crashing down in the truly spectacular fashion that was our lives back then.
We all made shitty choices that year. But would Cas telling you then have actually made anything better?
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( Or, died trying. Or brought the both of them to the brink, bloody and violent. )
I think about our lives, about the Mark of Cain, being a demon, Michael, Jack. Chuck. I'm dad, man. I've always been dad. I'll always be dad.
( He pushed Ben, attacked him. Went hunter on him when Lisa was in danger. Decided on what was best for him without asking. )
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[Sam speaks as someone who was raised by both Dean and John Winchester. There are things he'd trust Dean with that he would never give to John. Dean always kept him safe, even if it isn't the kind of safety Sam would prefer.]
And you made mistakes, but you can try and do better. You have a choice now.
[Not to say that they didn't have choices then, but feels far more open than it used to be.]
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( Okay. Maybe Sam has a point that none of this is about Cas. He places the phone against his forehead with a sigh. )
Cas! Hold on.
( He mutes Sam and sits back. Sees if Cas answers... he doesn't deserve it. He knows it. )
I was an ass okay. Took my crap put on you. I'm the dick.
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But eventually he does appear and nods.]
Yes, you are.
[He learned to speak Winchester enough for that to translate to "apology accepted."]
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Sam, I gotta call you back.
( And yoink, he ends that call. Being abrupt everywhere. )
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Castiel takes the olive branch and moves to sit, and will at least own up to his part in the mess that was Season 6.]
I know I didn't make things easy for you back then. I am sorry about that.
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( He clinks the glass against the bottle. )
Sam said you rescued him from a pocket dimension.
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[Cas takes a swig from the bottle before continuing.]
From what I understood, the witches who set it up were intending to bodyjack their occupants. They're dead now.
[Separate from Cas' role in things, but still a good point to be made.]
Sam didn't seem surprised by any of it so I assume it was part of the hunt he and Allison were on.
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( So, nobody was surprised at any of it. )
Thanks for being there for Sam. I should've been.
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[Which is basically Cas' way of saying there isn't much Dean could have done that Sam didn't already have handled.]
You probably would have both wound up in the pocket dimension and I would have needed to be called anyway.
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( He feels less bad now. )
Gee, thanks for the vote of confidence. ( Another sip of his bourbon follows as he hikes two legs up on the empty chair. ) Ben wants to meet mom.
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[That he's making an effort to show interest in Dean's side of his life. Cas would consider that a good thing.]
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( But, all he can do is present the opportunity. And they fall into a comfortable silence before Dean finds the local game on. He gets him and Cas two beers from the fridge. They haven't had time like this in awhile. He's needed it. )